Lily Reyes is writing her goodbyes in a notebook. In. A. Notebook. The one that she forgot here. In an arena for everyone to find.

Despite my body slowly calming down, I still find it hard to breathe, hard to feel the air fill my lungs. But what if the one drunken night they had turns into something more than just a hookup? A baby, for instance. I wouldn’t know what to tell you,” I reply in all honesty. It’s the truth. Even if I wanted to open up to her, I wouldn’t know what to say. To my surprise, Aaron does the very same fake gaging sound as Lily did. It catches my attention. So something did happen between them already, and neither of them is proud of it. But he also doesn’t jump onto the opportunity to find out what he’s supposed to know of. Relief instantly sweeps through my body. I give Aaron a weak smile, but eventually this weak smile turns into a genuine one. I don’t know how he does that, but just his presence makes me feel so much lighter, so much happier.Maybe we get to be sisters in another life. Because, despite what I told myself all these years, I like you. Tell me everything about you,” Eira demands. She wears a huge grin on her lips. It’s the same one Colin shows most of the time. Wait here, don’t move, okay?” I nod. Like I was going to do anything else. And just like that, Colin leaves and disappears into Professor Meisner’s classroom. Twelve more days,” I mumble to myself as I write another entry. “Twelve more days and this will all be over.” I shouldn’t push him any further. But to hell with that. Aaron Marsh just openly admitted on not being with her, yet he doesn’t want me touching this girl.

Eira is talkative and cheerful, way too happy sometimes. I don’t think you would like that much.” Although he doesn’t seem upset anymore, his voice says differently. You are a part of my life. Maybe not as big as you wished you’d be, but you are. And I love you, Ana. I really do. I have no clue why my mother never questioned my new skating lessons. Or why she never wanted to come inside to see if I was actually meeting my Coach. But I am not mad about it. LILS!” Yup, I can now confirm, it’s Winter. “COME GET DRUNK WITH US!” The hell I will. It’s Sunday. I have classes tomorrow. I won’t get drunk on a Sunday night with my best friend and whoever her company is. She knows better than to ask me such thing.No.” I know this will hurt him, but I can’t keep lying to my brother. He’s a sweetheart, he shouldn’t hold onto her when she clearly has no intentions seeing him or inviting him into her life. He deserves better. Liz is better…to him. Aaron will also murder me when I tell him I knew you wanted to kill yourself and I didn’t let him know what was going on with you. So either way, I will die.” He’s not wrong. I can see Aaron throwing Colin out of the house they share because of it. “Gives me a chance to haunt you in the afterlife.”

Does this need reasons why I want to die?” I ask myself. “Probably,” I answer myself. Yeah, I talk to myself, so sue me. I watch her leave, and once she is around the corner, I notice a mint green notebook lying on the seat. She forgot her notebook, dammit. Reyes? I’ve heard that last name before,” Grey Davis—the last dude I “share a house” with—informs me. “I think she is in one of my classes.” You won’t.” I’m not sure why he is so convinced of that. “If anything, you will get send straight to heaven for fighting against whatever makes you want to die.”Lily Reyes is struggling to overcome her melancholy. Despite her best efforts, she gives up and decides the world is too harsh for her to survive because of traumatic events she had as a child. When I first found the book still lying on the seat, I thought she left it on purpose. But I highly doubt that now. There is no way that she ever wanted anyone to find this before she… what? left?